"I'm offensive, bitter, and depressed. I need to reflect on some of things I have said in the past." This is what a good friend told me recently. I don't normally like to air my dirty laundry, but in my defense I have never, and I mean never, had anyone say this to me. Well, this isn't the first time I have had to walk away from a friend I love dearly, but what other choice do I have? I know I'm not bitter, and I'm the happiest I've been in awhile. Offensive? Why, because I think for myself? I did try and reflect on whatever it was they think is so offensive about me, and it all narrows down to having different point of views, and a different belief system. To be offended by them is really ridiculous. I am the same person they met six years ago, and if I am as offensive as they say I am, why were we so inseparable for so many years? Then it all clicked. Outside influences convinced this person that my way of thinking is offensive, and this same influence has caused this person to drop other friends as well.
When I tell people that I am no longer friends with this person they immediately assume we must have had a fight, but that wasn't really the case at all. I really hate the old cliche "They really weren't your friend to begin with." Yes, this person was my friend. A really good friend. People change and grow apart, that's just part of life. I think I would have had more respect for this person if they would have just said that to me. Instead the blame for our friendship going south was all on me. It's hard sometimes because we both hangout with the same group of friends who don't share the same feelings about me. When they ask what happened I just say that we no longer have anything in common, and have chose to part our separate ways because in all fairness, that's exactly what happened.
I still love this person dearly, and wish them the best even if I have to do it from afar.
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